[It's all he can do to strain against the leash, digging in his metaphorical heels and trying to resist the compulsion. He wants--no, he doesn't want this. He wants much, much more than this. He wants skin against skin, and wet heat, and the burn of overexerted muscles, and the bite of teeth and nails. Even if he knows it's the right thing to do, hands feel like a poor substitute. Even with all his hard-fought discipline, he can't help the way the need leaks through the cracks in every touch and gesture.
He should redirect Sylvain, one way or another. Hands in his hair are a risk he shouldn't be taking. The Lions don't need to know, not the way his Deer do. The best he can do is duck his head to ply lips and tongue along the younger man's jaw and neck instead, muffling the soft sounds he can't quite hold back. Hands may not be enough, but that doesn't mean he's not growing slick and hot under Sylvain's torturously slow ministrations, or that he doesn't start stroking Sylvain as well, touch firm and coaxing, encouraging him to take everything he needs.
The more Sylvain takes, the sooner he'll finish, after all--and that means the sooner their heads can be clear. No matter how many times he's been drugged here, it never gets easier to keep a hold of himself, only more predictable.]
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He should redirect Sylvain, one way or another. Hands in his hair are a risk he shouldn't be taking. The Lions don't need to know, not the way his Deer do. The best he can do is duck his head to ply lips and tongue along the younger man's jaw and neck instead, muffling the soft sounds he can't quite hold back. Hands may not be enough, but that doesn't mean he's not growing slick and hot under Sylvain's torturously slow ministrations, or that he doesn't start stroking Sylvain as well, touch firm and coaxing, encouraging him to take everything he needs.
The more Sylvain takes, the sooner he'll finish, after all--and that means the sooner their heads can be clear. No matter how many times he's been drugged here, it never gets easier to keep a hold of himself, only more predictable.]