"Jin Guangyao..." Oh gods, there was that all too familiar pain on Guangyao's face. The expression that so made his heart melt every time he saw it. The face of someone who had fought his own personal hell and survived... But barely.
Jin Guangyao seemed so frail, so broken. And knowing that he felt that pain only further lit Minshan's rage. How dare they hurt him? How dare they drag him down to the point that he only blames himself?
Perhaps part of it was because of how much Minshan himself used to think like that. When brought down and torn apart emotionally, when belittled and emotionally preyed upon by others, it was hard not to think that you were somehow to blame for how they reacted.
He reached down, lightly grasping Guangyao's arms. Keeping silent for a moment as he only stared down at his pleading friend, his strong and fearsome leader.
To think that this was what everyone believed to be a cold and calculating villain—the fools.
"Guangyao, you must stop this," His shoulders sulked down, sighing as he did his best to keep as calm as he could. "Stop blaming yourself for situations that were not entirely in your control. Stop blaming yourself for others' actions towards you. I know you do not wish situations to escalate. I know you don't wish to cause trouble. You rarely ever try to intentionally. But isn't that passive attempt to please others what caused our downfall?"
Leaning in, he wrapped his arms around Guangyao, holding him with such delicacy as if he was afraid the other man would shatter should he try to grasp him any harder.
"You are not to blame for the pain others have caused you. Others' reactions and how they decide to act upon them are entirely on themselves. So, please... Would you please stop letting them treat you like this? I'm not sure my heart can take it anymore."
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Jin Guangyao seemed so frail, so broken. And knowing that he felt that pain only further lit Minshan's rage. How dare they hurt him? How dare they drag him down to the point that he only blames himself?
Perhaps part of it was because of how much Minshan himself used to think like that. When brought down and torn apart emotionally, when belittled and emotionally preyed upon by others, it was hard not to think that you were somehow to blame for how they reacted.
He reached down, lightly grasping Guangyao's arms. Keeping silent for a moment as he only stared down at his pleading friend, his strong and fearsome leader.
To think that this was what everyone believed to be a cold and calculating villain—the fools.
"Guangyao, you must stop this," His shoulders sulked down, sighing as he did his best to keep as calm as he could. "Stop blaming yourself for situations that were not entirely in your control. Stop blaming yourself for others' actions towards you. I know you do not wish situations to escalate. I know you don't wish to cause trouble. You rarely ever try to intentionally. But isn't that passive attempt to please others what caused our downfall?"
Leaning in, he wrapped his arms around Guangyao, holding him with such delicacy as if he was afraid the other man would shatter should he try to grasp him any harder.
"You are not to blame for the pain others have caused you. Others' reactions and how they decide to act upon them are entirely on themselves. So, please... Would you please stop letting them treat you like this? I'm not sure my heart can take it anymore."