"I tried, da ge. I tried my best. I gave it everything I could."
At least, Huaisang has enough restraint and presence of mind to stop himself from babbling details about the murder or how heavy of a burden bearing the truth alone for so many years had been. Or maybe he's just unable to focus overly long on any one thing with so many feelings overpowering him.
"I tried again. With the saber. Really hard. I was so scared but I tried again anyway. I... I still couldn't get much better. I wanted to try again for you but I still failed..."
Fresh tears well up and he buries his face in Mingjue's shoulder again. Of all the failures in his life, that one still hurts the worst. That even after his brother's death, even after he'd inherited his position, even throwing everything he possibly could into learning saber techniques, it still wasn't enough to make things right between them again.
"I found other ways though. I worked really hard at it," he mumbles. "I wanted to make things right again somehow."
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At least, Huaisang has enough restraint and presence of mind to stop himself from babbling details about the murder or how heavy of a burden bearing the truth alone for so many years had been. Or maybe he's just unable to focus overly long on any one thing with so many feelings overpowering him.
"I tried again. With the saber. Really hard. I was so scared but I tried again anyway. I... I still couldn't get much better. I wanted to try again for you but I still failed..."
Fresh tears well up and he buries his face in Mingjue's shoulder again. Of all the failures in his life, that one still hurts the worst. That even after his brother's death, even after he'd inherited his position, even throwing everything he possibly could into learning saber techniques, it still wasn't enough to make things right between them again.
"I found other ways though. I worked really hard at it," he mumbles. "I wanted to make things right again somehow."