I don't care. I want you. You're important to me. You'll always be important to me.
[Huaisang doesn't let very many people close even at this age, he's still rather guarded with his heart. He never gives himself away completely and until opening up to Jin Guangyao, had never really been tempted to. Huaisang kisses the other man again. It's brief but this time there's a little bit more finesse to it; he's a quick study when it comes to subjects he wants to learn. The washcloth continues to move across his skin as if this act alone might cleanse Jin Guangyao of whatever sins he's committed in his lifetime.
He pulls back just a bit, shifting into a sitting position again and leaning back against the back of the tub, pulling Jin Guangyao along with him into his lap. Once they're resettled again, Huaisang tasks himself with washing away those tears and gently kissing their tracks. He speaks softly, still in that same sincere, sweet tone between each one.]
You're beautiful just as you are. I don't care what anyone thinks about you, including Da Ge. He doesn't get to decide everything for me.
[Huaisang's lips move down to a spot on Jin Guangyao's neck where he sucks there to leave a pretty mark to admire later.]
I'm not a good person either, A-Yao. My brother's dying and here I am with you, the last person he'd want me to be with. And I still don't care enough to stop.
[Or maybe he's just gone numb from the shock of everything. Who can see for sure what goes on inside of Nie Huaisang.]
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[Huaisang doesn't let very many people close even at this age, he's still rather guarded with his heart. He never gives himself away completely and until opening up to Jin Guangyao, had never really been tempted to. Huaisang kisses the other man again. It's brief but this time there's a little bit more finesse to it; he's a quick study when it comes to subjects he wants to learn. The washcloth continues to move across his skin as if this act alone might cleanse Jin Guangyao of whatever sins he's committed in his lifetime.
He pulls back just a bit, shifting into a sitting position again and leaning back against the back of the tub, pulling Jin Guangyao along with him into his lap. Once they're resettled again, Huaisang tasks himself with washing away those tears and gently kissing their tracks. He speaks softly, still in that same sincere, sweet tone between each one.]
You're beautiful just as you are. I don't care what anyone thinks about you, including Da Ge. He doesn't get to decide everything for me.
[Huaisang's lips move down to a spot on Jin Guangyao's neck where he sucks there to leave a pretty mark to admire later.]
I'm not a good person either, A-Yao. My brother's dying and here I am with you, the last person he'd want me to be with. And I still don't care enough to stop.
[Or maybe he's just gone numb from the shock of everything. Who can see for sure what goes on inside of Nie Huaisang.]