[When Huaisang's lips touched his own he couldn't help the small pleasured noise that escaped his lips. He kissed back, guiding him gently to deepen it. He didn't mind inexperience, he didn't have that much experience in this regard himself but the sweetness of it got to him.]
A-Sang.
[Was this how he had felt about him? He must have been so torn about his betrayal when he had found out what had happened. The thought had brought tears to his eyes. How is it that he hurt everyone that was close to him? Maybe the gentry was right. Maybe he didn't deserve to touch anyone with his whoreson hands.]
I'm not.
I'm not a good person A-Sang.
You deserve better than me Huaisang.
[He couldn't help the small shiver as he felt Huaisang's hands on his back as he looked up at him with watery eyes. He deserved so much more in this life. Why did he want to touch someone like him?]
(Cw: here be smut)
A-Sang.
[Was this how he had felt about him? He must have been so torn about his betrayal when he had found out what had happened. The thought had brought tears to his eyes. How is it that he hurt everyone that was close to him? Maybe the gentry was right. Maybe he didn't deserve to touch anyone with his whoreson hands.]
I'm not.
I'm not a good person A-Sang.
You deserve better than me Huaisang.
[He couldn't help the small shiver as he felt Huaisang's hands on his back as he looked up at him with watery eyes. He deserved so much more in this life. Why did he want to touch someone like him?]