[ Having a kettle of boiling water pour over him would hurt less than this moment right now, but Nao needs this to happen. He's been beating himself over this ever since. Despite reassurances, he doesn't feel like there are any valid excuses when he brought it on himself. He can try to explain and let Taichi take it for what it is. It's the Nishina situation all over again only worse, despite there being no physical contact between him and Ignis.

In both scenarios, Taichi was always on his mind. He still is. Taichi has every right to be upset but Nao doesn't want them to break up again after being separated for this long. ]

I didn't want to. [ He's trying to keep his composure even as he turns to look at Taichi's in the eyes this time. Of course he doesn't last, tears already at the corners of his eyes. ] Something happened to my body where...there was an aphrodisiac in something I ate.

I tried to wait it out, even touched myself. [ I thought of you. ] But...it wasn't going away after a few hours and it really started to hurt. A friend called me to check on me and talked me through it...it worked, but it didn't mean anything. [ He cannot emphasize that enough, despite how it sounds. ]

He was just trying to help.

[ God, he can barely wrap his head around it himself. Imagining Taichi touching alone wasn't enough, but listening to Ignis telling him how Taichi would ahve touched him if he was there did the trick? ]